Sunday, December 31, 2017
Happy New Year!
Tuesday, December 26, 2017
The butterfly
I got on here tonight to write something. I wasn’t sure what. I got into my Drafts folder by mistake and came across this. I wrote it in October, on the anniversary of my Aunt Linda’s death, but never posted it for some reason. Aunt Linda has been on my mind so much lately. Christmas reminds me of her. I wanted to post this because I wanted to remember her. And to remind myself to not ignore the butterflies.
“There are no goodbyes…only good memories.”
That thought has been running through my head since last night. I heard it on a TV show I was watching and it struck me how true the statement is.
Today it’s been a year since we lost my amazing Aunt Linda and our hearts are heavy and hurting because we all miss her so much. But, more often than not, when I think of her, it’s not with tears, but with laughter and happiness. I feel incredibly blessed that she was my aunt and a constant presence in my life from the day I was born. I wish we had more time with her, but I am so grateful for all of the years that we did have. Today I tried hard to think about all of the all the things that I gained with having Aunt Linda in my life instead of all the things we’ve lost since her death.
Today, I went for a walk on my lunch break. It was an overcast, damp day. Moisture literally hung in the air and I decided not to walk too far just in case it started to pour. As I walked along the sidewalk in a neighborhood near my office, a monarch butterfly flew in front of me. I didn’t think too much of it at first, but as I continued to walk, it again flew in my path. Did you know that butterflies hide when it rains? Little wonder since they are so small and their wings are so fragile. I’ve read that even on cloudy days, butterflies are rarely seen because even the threat of rain keeps them hiding. These facts ran through my mind as I watched the orange and black butterfly flutter into a nearby flower bed. As I started to continue down the street, another thought came to me - a butterfly is a symbol of resurrection. “It’s said when you see a butterfly, it’s someone you love in heaven reminding you of them and giving you a reason to remember all of the beautiful memories you shared with them”. Suddenly, it didn’t seem so strange to see that butterfly. I spent the rest of my walk thinking of memories I have of Aunt Linda. I thought about holidays and birthdays spent at the Klare house. I thought about walking to her house from the bus stop a few times when I was in high school and always feeling welcome whenever I stopped by their home. I thought about a time I was home alone at night once a teenager and got so freaked out because I thought I heard a noise upstairs. I called her in a panic and she didn’t make me feel silly or stupid for being afraid. I thought about how she was the first person that I called after my parents when Pat and I got engaged and about the beautiful bridal shower she threw for me. I thought about the things I loved most about Aunt Linda – her kind and loving heart and her generous spirit.
I love you Aunt Linda. I miss you.
Thursday, December 14, 2017
My new niece!
Thursday, December 7, 2017
The Train Museum
Over the weekend, the kids and I, along with Pops, visited the Behringer-Crawford Museum. According to the website, “The regional history of Northern Kentucky as part of the Ohio Valley must be preserved for the benefit of present & future generations. Therefore, the Behringer-Crawford Museum is a center for the collection, presentation, study and enjoyment of our natural, cultural, and visual and performing arts heritage.”. That’s great and all, but we mostly went for the trains. Each year the museum has an incredible display of Christmas train in addition to their everyday train displays. My dad got tickets at an auction and we were all excited to go. Especially our little train lover Mitch.
The museum was really cool and we really enjoyed it. It was very interactive and kid-friendly. They had tunnel underneath the trains where you could pop your head up in a bubble and be “inside” the display. There were buttons you could press on the side of the Christmas display that worked different parts of it and a lever that made a red trolley go back and forth. There were some really interesting exhibits outside of the trains showing some of the history of the airports and riverboats. They also had a restored street car (circa 1892 I think) to view that was pretty neat. There was a lot more to see than I expected, though we spend the majority of our times with the trains. Thank you Pops for the tickets! We made some wonderful holiday memories and we can’t wait to go back!
Tuesday, December 5, 2017
That time Kiki tried Blue Apron
Thursday, November 30, 2017
Day 30 - Time
I’m so grateful for this past year. We had our ups and downs. There were some really amazing moments and some very, very difficult ones. But we made it through, and truthfully, I think we are stronger because of it.
It was a year that I wasn’t sure I’d get with my mom. But through the grace of God, the wonders of modern medicine and the sheer determination and strength of my amazing mother, we were given the greatest gift you can be given – Time.
None of us are guaranteed tomorrow. I think we are all made aware of that fact at some point in our lives. Sometimes, however unintentional it may be, we take for granted those things that mean the most to us. We naively think that those things will always be there. But then something happens and we realize that life and love are things that we should always appreciate and cherish because in an instant, they can be gone. We were reminded of that when my mom got sick, but it hold trues for all people. Don’t be afraid to tell those you care about that you love them. Make an effort to call those that you don’t see often and don’t put off things for tomorrow that can be done today. Big, extravagant things are great, but don’t forget to appreciate the smaller, quieter moments. Those will be the times you remember and treasure most.
These 30 days of thankfulness have really driven this home for me. I was reminded of how blessed I am and how grateful for each and every moment. I hope that I can take my own advice, practice what I preach and really live the next year (and beyond) with an attitude of gratitude.
Below is our Thanksgiving Blessing Tree. The kids had fun and hopefully learned a little something at the same time.
Day 29 - Family
It’s not what we have in life, but who we have that matters.
We are incredibly blessed to have a wonderful family. I’ve sat here for a while trying to put into words what my parents, siblings, in-laws, grandparents, aunts, uncles and cousins mean to my life. I didn’t expect it to be a struggle and yet it is. Not because I don’t have the words, but because the words seem insufficient. My family is my life. My happiest memories involve them. When something good happens, I want to share it with them. When times are difficult, I depend on their support and love. Now that I have children of my own, I honestly do not know what I would do without my family. Pat and I aren’t raising our kids by ourselves. We are raising them with our families’ help.
We don’t always agree and sometimes we get aggravated with one another. And that’s ok. Families aren’t perfect. I came across this quote and it really resonated with me... “You don’t love someone because they’re perfect…You love them in spite of the fact that they’re not.” I love the imperfection. It inspires me to be better. But it also inspires me to embrace and accept things that I may not completely understand. My love of my family has been enriched by how different we all are from each other.
As we enter the holiday season, I just want to thank each and every member of our family for being in our lives. The words seem so inadequate, but they come straight from my heart. Your love and support mean everything to us and we appreciate all that you do for us. We love you all so much.
Day 28 - All the Things
I wanted to take a moments to just list some of things for which I’m thankful that I might not have mentioned yet. Some are simple and some are more meaningful. I’m not listing everything – that would take up more than just this blog post! But I wanted to count my blessings to remind myself of how fortunate I truly am.
- Laughter
- Quiet time
- Doctors and Nurses
- Modern Medicine
- A comfortable place to sleep
- A warm home on a cold day
- Dark Chocolate
- Popcorn
- Game nights
- Family Traditions
- Reliable Transportation
- A glass of wine after a long day
- Snuggles on a Saturday morning
- Mama / Evie Movie Night
- Mitchell’s excitement over trains
- Home cooked meals
- Pizza when you don’t feel like cooking
- Family vacations
- My father-in-law’s generosity
- Flowers when you least expect them
- Conversations with my mom
- My dad’s exuberance at being Pops
- My mother-in-law’s time and bigheartedness
- Visits with GG
- The love my siblings give to my kids
- Long walks
- Mistakes that help us learn
- My kid’s smiles
- Second Chances
- Quiet mornings
- Love
- Peace
- Life
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Day 27 - Teachers
Sunday, November 26, 2017
Day 26 - Seasonal Fun
Day 25 - Pat
Friday, November 24, 2017
Day 24 - Beautiful Days
Day 23 - Happy Thanksgiving
Wednesday, November 22, 2017
Day 22 - Mitchell
Today I’m thankful for my Mitch.
He’s ornery at times and can seriously drive us bonkers. But for all of the times that he makes us want to pull our hair out, there is an equal number of times that he’s the sweetest little boy ever.
I have said before that I think that 3 years old is hard age. I still think that it’s hard, but I also think my three year old is pretty darn cool. He’s untouched by society’s expectations of what a boy should be. He loves the color pink. He asked to wear a pair of Evie’s pink pajama pants that didn’t fit her anymore and he was so excited when I told him that he could have them. I was painting Evelyn’s nails and he wanted his nails painted too. Pink with sparkles please! He wore Evelyn’s pink Minnie Mouse hat to the park. He doesn’t care what anyone thinks. He likes pink so he’s going to wear it. There is something so freeing about that. It can change so much once kids start school. I can see it with Evie. But so far, Mitch doesn’t really care what other people think and I love that about him.
Mitch is a rough-and-tumble little guy, but he’s also one of the snuggliest kids I know. He give the best hugs. He has a kind heart and he loves to help other people. His smile can light up a room and his giggle is infectious. He makes us laugh everyday with his goof-ball antics. He’s a crazy nut, but we love him to bits.
Day 21 - Books
Tuesday, November 21, 2017
Day 20 - Faith
Today I’m thankful for my faith and I’m thankful for my religious education. I do not subscribe to all of the beliefs of the Catholic Church by far, but it is important to me to have faith. I have to believe in something…greater than this world. Of course doubt will creep in and make me wonder and question. At the end of the day, though, I have faith in God. I may not understand his plan and I may not like the way his plan unfolds at times. I may get angry with God for things that happen and question why thing have to be the way that they are. Why can’t He just fix everything and make it all better? In the same breath, I have to remind myself that I don’t know God’s plan and I have been incredibly blessed in this life.
I don’t want to get deeply religious here. I’m just thankful to believe in something because I can’t imagine a life where I believed in nothing. I’m trying to teach the kids that as well. We say a prayer when we see an ambulance or hear a siren. We have a children’s bible that Evelyn enjoys reading once in a while. We talk about God and our blessings. They have SEED time at school, which is a lessons that incorporate religion and God. Someday, they will both have more in-depth religious education, but I think we are making a good start.
Sunday, November 19, 2017
Day 19 - Surprises
Day 18 - Time with my husband
Day 17 - Coffee
Thursday, November 16, 2017
Day 16 - Friends
I’m thankful for friends.
I thankful for work friends. Without these people, the days would drag and I’d definitely be pretty miserable at the office. They brighten my day and make me laugh. They listen to me ramble about the kids and let me be more than just a mom.
I’m thankful for best friends. I really don’t know where I’d be without my friends Julie and Bridget. We’ve been friends since high school and though we don’t see each other often, we remain close. They have been there for me when I needed them most and I hope I’m able to be there for them. They accept me for who I am and yet inspire be to be better.
I thankful for family friends, particularly our forever friends and neighbors (but really they are family) the Buechel’s. This family is the greatest. They have been there for us through thick and thin. 31 years ago my family moved in next door to theirs and the rest is history. They were at the hospital there with us when my mom was ill and they have bent over backwards to be there for us while she recovers. They even threw Holly a little sprinkle on Sunday. They are amazing and I’m so thankful for them.
I’m thankful for friends of the past who I don’t really see anymore and friends of the future that I have yet to meet.
Day 15 - Parks and Outdoor Time
I’m thankful for parks and outside playtime.
I’ve said before that we are a park family and I wasn’t kidding. This time of year is wonderful in so many ways, but it does limit our outdoor time which has been a difficult adjustment. I didn’t realize how much we all came to depend on the active time outside. The kids have been going a little stir crazy already with all of this indoor time and the house is in a constant state of disarray. It’s been a little…difficult to say the least.
I still try and get them outside as much as possible. If the temperature is 45 degrees or above, I will probably try and take them to a park. We managed to go twice last week and once this week already. Luckily, their school is on the same page as us and gets the kids outside (weather permitting) as well. I absolutely love that they value free play outdoors. Evelyn gets outside at least twice a day and Mitch goes out once on the days that he has school. I really think outdoor play has a lot of value in childhood. Outdoor play lets the kids explore the natural environment and be physically active. We live very sedentary lives these days with TV, computers, video games and smart phones and I believe it important to teach kids the value of being active. This is part of the reason I love parks so much. Kids learn to navigate different play apparatuses. It builds their gross motor skills, but it can also boost their confidence. Evelyn has been trying to master the monkey bars at her school’s playground for a while now. She could only make it a few bars before letting go. The other day when I picked her up she could not wait to run outside and surprise me. She made it all the way across!! She was so excited and proud. It’s such a small thing, but to her, it was huge.
I’m hoping that this winter is a mild one or that we at least have a mild day here and there so I can still get the kids outside!
Day 14 - Music
Well I’m totally slacking! I fell asleep typing last night and never posted this. 😴
I’m thankful for music. It fills our days with melodies and songs. It can make me cry and make me laugh. It’s often in the background, seemingly unnoticed, but still setting the mood so completely. I love the Christmas music that plays in the stores this time of year. Sure, I know they play it to put everyone in the mood to Christmas shop (and spend money). But I love it for the happiness that it makes me feel, the nostalgia, the excitement of the season.
I love how when you hear a song, it can remind you of a person. I cannot hear ‘Unforgettable” by Natalie and Nat King Cole without thinking of my Grandpa Bud. When I listen to the song “The Love of My Life” by Carly Simon, I remember being in the car with my mom when I was a kid. We had just come from the mall and she played the song for me. She told me that when she heard it, it made her think of her kids and how much she loved us. I’ve never forgotten how wonderful that made me feel and I love that I can share it with my kids now. I will never hear a song by Dan Fogelberg without thinking of my dad. It brings to mind memories of him standing over a press at the print shop, tinkering with something. It also makes me think of Sunday mornings growing up. He would put on his records every Sunday growing up while he or my mom made breakfast and read the paper. When I hear the song “The Way You Look Tonight” by Frank Sinatra, I think of Pat and our wedding. Funnily enough, it’s not the song that played during our first dance. That was “It Had to Be You” by Harry Connick Jr. But when I hear ‘The Way You Look Tonight’, I can picture us dancing. It brings back so many memories of that day and how happy and excited we were. It also makes me think of how far we’ve come and how even though almost 7 years have passed, I’m still so happy that we are together.
These days, the music sounds a little different in our house. We listen to a lot more Disney than rock. :) Evelyn loves Kids Bop and she’s been known to sing along to the pop songs by Taylor Swift and Katy Perry on the radio. Mitch loves to belt out “I’ve been working on the railroad” in a strange, countrified voice. The kids and I love to crank up the music at home and have dance parties. But I can remember a time, not so very long ago, when I swayed with them in my arms to “When You Wish Upon a Star”.
Time passes so quickly, but music can connect us to any time and place.
Wednesday, November 15, 2017
Day 13 - Food
I’m thankful for food. Food can be such a centerpiece to different events in our lives – from Thanksgiving dinner to Sunday morning breakfast. Food brings us together and makes up happy. I’m glad we such a variety to choose from and enjoy. Having a husband that is a chef is a definite perk too. He’s introduced me to so many foods that I would not otherwise have tried. I have always enjoy learning a little bit about a culture from their foods.
Even more than the variety though, is the fact that we have food. I’m thankful that I do not have to worry about how I’m going to feed my family and where my next meal is coming from. When Mitch says “Mama- I’m hungry”, I can get him a snack. Evelyn doesn’t have to worry that there won’t be food in her lunchbox. As painful as it to think about, there are so many people that go to bed hungry every night. These are people that have to choose between paying the mortgage or buying food. Parents that go hungry so that their kids can eat. Children that dread school breaks because they depend on the breakfast and lunch served there. It could happen to me and my family. It can happen to anyone. So I’m thankful that today I don’t have those worries. I wish I could do more to help those that do. We donate to Food Banks and round up at Kroger, but someday I hope to do more.
Day 12 - Work
I’m thankful that both Pat and I have employment. Sure it can be hard to get up every day and leave my children. But I’m thankful that I have a job and that I’m able to provide for them. It can be stressful and exhausting trying to juggle motherhood and full-time job outside the house. I often feel like I’m constantly going, yet not much ever gets completely done. I supposed that can be said for being a parent in general. I don’t have experience being a stay-at-home parent (outside of my maternity leaves), but I know when I’m home with my kids they are totally exhausting and pretty much make it their mission to destroy everything in their path. Sometimes I’m grateful to have the respite of work. I can be an adult and have adult conversations. I can talk about current events and life in general, instead of Paw Patrol or Pokémon. I love my children, but I definitely appreciate them more when I’m not around them 24/7. And I think that they have gained so much from being around people other than me.
Working an opposite schedule than Pat definitely isn’t ideal, but it works for us right now. I know people who have spouses that travel for work and gone for weeks at a time. That would be a hard situation and it makes me very grateful that it’s not us. Pat and I depend on each other to do this whole parenting thing. We are lucky that our jobs are semi-flexible and that we both have a good amount of vacation time. We work to live, we don’t live to work.
Mitch visited me at work last week...
Day 11 - Unplanned Family Time
I haven’t had a change to write in several days so I’m playing catching in the next few posts.
On this day, Day 11, I’m thankful for special, impromptu moments with family. This kids and I drove down to KY on Saturday. We didn’t have any plans expect for Holly’s Sprinkle on Saturday. We hung out at my parent’s house with them, Shannon, Chip, Shannon, Holly and Avi and really had a great time. Mary Ann even came over for a little while. My dad put up his Christmas train, which was a huge hit with the kids. Especially Mitchell (big surprise there). Now if only Mitch and Avi could try and keep the train on the tracks instead of derailing it! Those boys were cracking us up and driving Pops nutty. We ordered carry-out for dinner and just ate, drank, talked and laughed. Nothing extraordinary and yet, I feel so blessed to have these moments after the year we’ve all had.
I was too busy enjoying myself to take may pictures, but here are a few...
Friday, November 10, 2017
Day 10 - Evelyn
Thursday, November 9, 2017
Day 9 - Changing Seasons
I love living in a place where we experience the changing of seasons. There are times that I wish it didn’t get so extreme – like 110 summer heat and -15 winter wind chills. But I enjoy the variety and I look forward to the changes. Fall is such a gorgeous season. Last week the leaves on the trees that line our street changed to the most beautiful reds, oranges and yellows. It was so pretty and we enjoyed being outside and playing in the leaves that had fallen. Not as much fun was raking the leaves up this week. Well – I should say not as much for Pat and I. The kids had a great time cannonballing into the leaf piles! I love the summer days at the pool and evenings spent sitting outside with a cocktail while the kids catch fireflies. I love spring days when everything is fresh and new and growing. I even love the winter. Sometimes it can seem that the cold hangs on a little too long. But I love the quiet that seems to descend on the world during heavy snowfall. I love sled riding, building a snowman and throwing snowballs. I love the traditions of cozying up with blanket and cup of hot cocoa to watch some classic Christmas cartoons.
There are things about each season that I love and I enjoy living in a place where I can experience them all.