Strength

I'm watching a movie on TV (Where the Heart Is).  It was made in 2000 so I makes me a little nostalgic right now.  I long for those days in so many ways.  It was so much simpler.  All I was really worried about was school and grades (I guess...to be honest I can't even remember).

Life right now is hard.  My mom relapsed and we almost lost her twice in a week.  I was literally on my knees at the hospital begging God to save her.  By some Miracle God did, but she's by no means out of the woods.  She's on a really intense chemo regimen that we are hoping will kick the s*#t out of her cancer.  I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared...I am scared, but I REFUSE to lose hope.  Tonight, as I watched this movie, I felt so nostalgic for the past. Maybe it has something to do with the wine I've had .  We all do what we have to do to get through I guess.  It's SO much more complicated with the kids.  I wish could scream and cry, but I can't.  My kids need me to be strong.  They need me to tell them it will all be okay.  And no matter what happens...it will be. Yes, there are moments that are hard, but overall the SO many more moments are precious and amazing and I am endlessly grateful for that.  Please continue to keep us in your prayers...we can use as many prayers as we can get.

P.S. - I hope Kiki doesn't mind me posting these.  They are amazing pictures to me that display the strength of my mom and my kids.